...to be or not to be

Ok, so I find myself at and interesting stage of my life. I am now, 35, I am in between being married and single, I have 4 children, I think I look pretty good, and I seem to be attractive to the opposite sex.

I had two sort of 'relationships' in this past year. One was with an old High School Boyfriend whom I adore (and still do) and one was with a guy that I met off of Facebook whom sold me the stars and gave me the rocks. Hes an ass, and always will be :D

Ok so here is my dilemma, not sure if that is the right word....ok

I believe there are two types of woman.
1. Casual Sex Types
2 Non Casual Sex Types

I am more of a number 2 because I can have sex (pretty ok with that ) but then emotions come into and I start to feel bad about myself, the whole giving the milk away for free, when he didn't buy the cow (expression). As well, I wonder why I can't find a good man and have sex at the same time, I am a catch, I am a good person, I am lovely.

So, now......

I have had a semi casual sexual relationship with BF from High School because he is safe, familiar, I know his history and hes gooooood.

I have been propositioned by someone else now and I am considering it. He is a guy I used to work with, I don't know a whole lot about him, his name, where he lives, he has a cat, but he is leaving at the end of July. This would be a once only kind of thing and I am on the fence.....not to mention I feel a little guilty about BF and I know thats crazy, because its a casual thing.....I am so fuuuuuucked up.

A wise person told me once (ok it was Jenn) that we are not casual sex type girls

easy yes...casual no :D