Wednesday, January 21, 2009

FUCK!

So I have been passed over .....again.

I am really tired.

Tired of the pain. Tired of the self esteem hit I take everytime. What the hell is wrong with me? What defect do I have that repels them? I am so tired. FUCK

I am too old for this. I am too old to try and figure out what I do wrong in relationships and never really given the opportunity to fix anything before I am passed over.

Just once I would like someone to PICK ME.....pass over the other girl
CHOOOOOOSE ME!
LOOOOOVE ME!

FUCK IT!

I am so done.

The wall is around the heart again, it is very fragile, and its going to take alot for it to come down.

:(

Funk resumes.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Damn.

Sorry bub.

Lady in red said...

hugs from another mother of 4 trying to avoid the landmines in the online dating field

Anonymous said...

I've been thinking a lot about us, my friend, and I think we're doing it wrong.

We keep building up walls, locking ourselves in. I think we should stop and just let it go.

These barricades aren't protecting us. In all honesty, I think they hurt us more.

cassie said...

Thanks Lady :D

and Jenn i think you may be right....

the wall is coming down ....sloooooowly :D

Anonymous said...

When are you going to start believing that "Jenn is always right"? What oh what will it take???